This past weekend was suppose to be an uneventful weekend besides going to Maddie's dance recital on Saturday night. Last Thursday Landon was not feeling well so we took him in and he had bronchitis so we got him medicine and hoped by weekend he would be feeling better but Landon's luck. By Saturday he had a 106 temp yes I said 106 that is not a typo, we could not get his fever under control and he was soooo lethargic just would lay around. It was so sad, I felt so bad for him. I texted our doctor (thank God he is just a phone call away for us). He told me to take him to ER right away so we did. Long story short we were there three hours for them to tell me a temp is normal. I know that if you have a temp it is normal to be fighting something off but 106?? I don't think that is normal. I felt like the worst mom ever and that I was doing something wrong. I don't know if we were giving him enough medicine to keep his temp down but was worried with him already on an antibiotic. I was so distrait I gave them wrong birth date...it was awful! The nurse in the ER we had once we got to a room was AWESOME!!! She was so kind bless her heart. Jared had taken Tristan to the car because it was almost 10:30 and hadn't seen the doctor yet. The doctor comes and goes and when the nurse came back in she said she wanted to recheck his temp to make sure it has gone down some, which it had...thank goodness! She asked if I needed anything and I just started bawling, she said are you ok, I said, "yes just feel awful and like a bad mom". I was having so much mommy quilt it was awful. She gave me a hug and started crying and said I maybe a nurse but as a mom I would have done the EXACT same thing. She said I don't want you to leave like this. I said I was ok and thank you and said I needed to go. As I walked out of the ER I was crying and telling Landon at least 10 times that I loved him and I would do better next time and won't make him suffer. (not that I was on purpose). I just keep telling him I will try to be a better mom and I loved him!! I felt sooo bad I just keep squeezing him and kissing him and hugging him. Poor little man. As we left to go to the store to get more medicine I was reading through the discharge papers that stated again a TEMP IS NORMAL!! I understand that but 106 and my doctor told me to go in.
This is when I thought to myself mad this is only the beginning of times like this for their lifetime, but man I am not a fan of feeling like that! I just keep thinking there is no book on how to raise a child and that you do the best you can and know how. I couldn't sleep and kept telling Jared how I felt and he would say well you didn't know and I didn't know, he is ok and nothing serious is wrong so he will be fine. I just said lots of prayers that night and hardly slept between checking on him, his temp and praying my mind was going.
He is feeling much better today but still has had an off and on temp but was down to 103-104, which I still think is a little high. I talked to the doctor's office today because Landon had broke out in a full body rash today. They said it was most likely from his high fever over the weekend try benadryl and if don't go down or away in a 24-48 hours come in. The nurse I talked was really upset what the ER doctor said and agreed that Landon's temp was too high to not be seen. She did not like the doctor I saw in ER so she made me feel like I was not the worse parent in the world too, which was nice.
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