Where I came from...

Back where I come from, I think about that a lot especially lately!  My family is the biggest blessing I could ever ask for.  One of the main reasons is because if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be who I am today!  I continue to thank God for all the blessing he has given me.  Even if there are some things I wouldn't have written in my life story if I were writing it but God has a plan.  In the big scheme of things I am more than BLESSED!  I recently got this mirror and on it, it says "TRULY BLESSED"  I really feel that.  On the days I am feeling down and look into the mirror I hope it will change my mood.  So that leads into my weekend and how I am so glad for the parents I have.  They have raised me into such an amazing women, as I know I have faults (more than I would like) I feel I am a good person to myself and others and have a good head on my shoulders. 
This past weekend was going to be another uneventful weekend and as it was we had a pleasant surprise.  My dad called me Friday morning and asked what we were doing and I said no plans, are you going to COME and visit us??:)  He said was thinking about driving mom down to see the boys.  I was ecstatic but said what about Jared and I and what about YOU don't you want to see us.  So none the less they came and it was a fabulous weekend.  Friday night we grilled and then went to the Briar Cliff vs. Morningside football scrimmage.  It was fun but I didn't see much of the game.  Mom and I were chasing the boys up and down the bleachers and on the track and field.  Mom got stung by a wasp:( but was ok.  They were swarming all four of us and got mom. 
Saturday we got up had a nice breakfast and then mom and I did some major cleaning...like old times.  It was so nice to get the floors done good and good cleaning done. Then after boys naps we took bath, showers and got ready for church.  After helping mom with hair and make up she looked in the mirror and looked at me and said, "thank you for making me look pretty."  Made me SMILE!!  I think church took mom and dad right back to having little ones again and not being able to hear a thing the priest says:).  They were great help and we made it through and went off to dinner at one of dad's favorites Hungry's. 
Sunday before mom and dad left mom and I went and got a pedicure and mom got a manicure too, it was AWESOME!! Not only to relax but to see mom's face and hear how excited she was to be pampered.  I am not sure how many times she has been pampered like that, not many I know that.  She was excited to show dad when we got home at "how pretty" she was. 
I am not sure how many of you that read my blog know that my mom has Alzheimer's, so every second I get to spend with her is priceless to me(us, Jared and boys).  So her feeling pretty and good about herself is more than I can ask.  She does pretty good but has her moments!  It may not be the "plan" I had for my mom or our family but she is here and as it is not always ideal and causes stress on our family she is here!  The most stress is on my dad but he does so AWESOME with her and laughs it off, which is all you can do.  I am so glad I got to spend the weekend with her and dad and hope to have so many more!  She means so well and as she may not always remember what she said, asked or is doing she is my mom.  My mom and I have always been very close growing up she was my best friend someone that would always listened to me and give me great advice.  So as she has changed she is still my best friend and still listens to me.  I just don't always get advice but I just remember back in the day and know she would give it to me if she had it in her.  I feel mom is one of the most genuine people I know so when this awful disease "acts" up it is so HARD but I know it is not my mom.  I guess if I had to choose this or a disease, cancer something where mom was suffering I would take this EVERY time you asked me.  She is not suffering and it is way harder on all us family but we are STRONG and we can do it!  I am so proud of my family, dad, brothers and sisters couldn't ask for a better supportive family! 
Seeing my boys interact with "grandma" is so priceless I love watching them, the LOVE between them is amazing.  Even though we don't see grandma and grandpa Rosenmeyer as much as we would like the boys pick up right away with grandma and act like they saw her yesterday.  Landon has been a little weary of grandpa lately but not this trip he was giving him hugs and kisses all the time.  I wish I could bottle it all up and pull it out in the future!
So the moral of this post is feel blessed to have what you have and if you are not happy with it try and change it and if you can't change it make the bet of what God has given you. 
Tell the people you LOVE daily, hourly you LOVE them you don't know when they will be gone or when they won't remember the "little things". 

Fire Trucks

Today I was super excited to take the boys to the fire station and thought they would be too!  I picked them up at daycare and headed to the station.  We have a friend that works there that was going to check out new car seats.  He said I could bring the boys so I did hoping they would love the trucks.  Well...they were a little overwhelmed with the big trucks, hats, and a strange guy:)  They did not want to get out of mom's arm's and did not want to get into the trucks at all, they just cried which is very unusual for them.  Well after about 20 min. dad showed up and they were all about the trucks and such!  It was a fun little trip.

Laid back weekend...NOT so fast

So this past weekend was supposed to be laid back.  We hoped to get the house cleaned and just hang out in addition to an in-town wedding on Saturday.  Well Friday, we didn't do much, but Saturday morning I had to mail some things and then run to Target.  While in Target, the boys were antsy and didn't want to sit in the cart.  They were in and out, in and out.  Jared was looking around and I had the boys in the cart  (in the front part).  Tristan was trying to crawl out and then Landon.  As I was grabbing Tristan, Landon started to crawl out, I stopped the cart and Landon fell out and hit his head!  I was so SCARED!! He cried and then started to act very lethargic and strange. He never lost consciousness but was not acting like himself.  So we tried to hurry out of the store and get to Urgent Care. I called MyNurse and the nurse confirmed that we should go in somewhere.  We were close to our doctor's office so went there in hope that our doctor would be on call.  Well we barely got checked in and all three ladies (two nurses) said since he was so lethargic that we needed to take him to the ER.  After a couple hours, he started becoming more lively.  So, after feeling like the worst mom ever and Jared helping me confirm that I was, the doctors said he was okay and that we could go home.  He said that he might of had a little concussion but we didn't have to wake him and he could sleep as normal and such.  If things got worse, we were supposed to come back.  He and the nurses in the ER were much nicer this time around.  So we headed home to get the boys a nap before heading to the wedding.  The boys had a great time running around and "dancing".  Landon fell a couple times and one time hit a chair pretty hard.  That poor boy!  He was pretty cute though because he grabbed a little girl's (2 years old) hand and acted like they were going to dance.  It was very cute but in the back of my head I said, "Oh no, not yet.  This is waaaaay too soon!"
 
Today was much less commotion, thank goodness. Both boys were tired so we took two naps today to try and catch up a little bit.  Since starting daycare, they only get one nap a day and with yesterday being a bit crazy, we thought they could use it.  Tomorrow starts another week at daycare and one day closer to mommy and daddy getting busier and busier.

First week of daycare

So this past week was the boys first week at daycare, Nikki's daycare.  They did pretty good most days.  Tristan is having a bit harder time, and that breaks my heart in a million pieces.  He cries everyday and today was the worse day, both cried and Tristan SCREAMED and didn't want daddy to leave.  Wednesday daddy had to sneak out.  Jared said that when he gets ready to leave Tristan just sticks out his bottom lip and looks at him like "your not leaving me yet are you".  He said it is very hard on him to leave him.  He said he is pretty sure if I was dropping off that every day I would take them home and say, "we will try again tomorrow", is is probably not too far off.  I want to try and drop off this next week but not sure that I am ready for it.  I hope next week is better, I feel bad they are so sad and feel bad that Nikki has to deal with that.  She is so kind she sends me pictures and texts throughout the day to help me through the days.  Luckily my days are not too long yet so I can go get them right after nap most days.  When I pick them up I usually sit and play with he boys and other kids and talk to Nikki about the boys' day.  She said that Tristan stays close to her and observes a lot.  Sort of makes me sad but I have confidence in him that he will warm up and play more and more like big brother.  I just tell myself everyday they are having fun and meeting new friends but when I hear they cry it breaks my heart.  I know since I worked at a daycare that the crying usually only last a few seconds or minutes but still don't like it now that I am the mother.  I hope next week gets better I am sure over time it will. I just need to stay strong.

Mason one of their new friends(Nikki's son, only a couple months older then the boys)

always close by one another

Playing with their new friend, Mason

Day ONE!

So you all are dying to know I am sure...the first day at daycare went pretty well.  Nikki sent me a picture and they were outside sitting on chairs and seemed to be doing ok.  They both cried when daddy left, breaks my heart.  Jared got there and played with them for a little bit and then got ready to leave.  For you that don't know they boys have been in our home 90% of their lives with sitters/nannies coming to them.  So they have some normalcy with being in their house and own beds for naps and such.  They are at the age of separation issues so we know this might be hard for a couple reasons. I hope as the days go on it gets easier on all of us including Nikki, the daycare provider.  When I picked them up they both just looked at me confused and then came to me. I pictured them running to me...maybe tomorrow.

After daddy dropped off  the boys enjoying the nice weather before it gets to hot

Daycare

This past week we did more searching for a daycare for our precious boys to go.  If any of you have talked to me lately or know me, you know who hard this has been for me!  So without going into to much mushy details we found one and they start tomorrow.  I am at ease after meeting with her and seeing her place and the "daycare".  She is very nice, great with kids and so sweet to Jared and I.  The boys seemed to like it when we went to introduce them to her and the other kids.  Her name is Nikki Dirkschneider and her husband played soccer with Jared at Briar Cliff.  She is only a couple blocks away, so Jared plans to walk them there some days.  After talking with Jared and meeting with Nikki we all agree it is in everyone's best interest that this momma don't drop the boys off at first.  So Jared will drop off and I will pick up for now.  I will post again tomorrow letting you know how it went.  Wish us luck!